Hello, Hola, Aloha,
Before Sunday League Soccer Game
My stomach is a bit in a knot right now. I’m heading to a soccer game in a sec.
I buzzed my head.
Lots of old identities are being shed. Internally and externally.
There is much to do and I find myself not exactly sure where to start.
I’m looking for a coach to come around and tell me exactly what I need to learn in order to be the best center back in college soccer.
After Sunday League Game
What a wonderful week.
I hesitate to say that because it’s kicked my ass.
However, I’m also very much full.
There is much to be done.
Finding a place to stay in Buenos Aires would be a good start.
Except that’s pretty far down the totem pole right now with eligibility, a grad program, a semi-pro team to play on, and getting fit each day.
I have found that stepping into my greatness starts with owning my story that I am a fucking beast.
It scared me to ever say that in the soccer context. I always was the prancing around guy that was grateful to be there.
Now, I am owning my story.
It challenges me to live up to what I say.
Intensity has been the biggest differentiator.
I’ve plugged myself in with the soccer scene here in Maui.
I play for the summer league team of all Argentinians. I’m the token gringo. Vamo.
I have a shaved head, a commitment to be a starting center back for the University of Notre Dame next year, and a path ahead of me.
I’m locked and loaded. I have a lot of work ahead of me.
I’m still wearing football shoes because I couldn’t find a single pair of soccer cleats on Maui. WTF. Part of it.
My soccer is slowly evolving. The hardest thing for me when I get past all the logistical matters I need to do is whether I will be good enough.
Doubt in my greatness. Doubt in my old stories.
I’m slowly shifting those.
It takes two to tango, life.
Maybe a better metaphor is boxing.
I’ve taken a few upper cuts already this week, but I keep persisting.
I made a commitment and I continue.
I feel less constricted and more free. Never thought I’d say that.
I feel at home on the field.
Truly, I'm playing soccer differently than I’ve ever played before. My intensity and locked in-ness bring out a whole new game.
Do. Take a break. Get back at it.
All of my love,
Double B —
The starting center back next year for the University of Notre Dame.