Hello Hello Hello,
I’ve been delaying writing this. But there is no reason to. I didn’t feel there was much to update you on.
But in fact, there is.
I’m in the mud, figuring shit out, taking it day by day.
I had a phone call with a local coach today.
He explained to me how I had it all wrong.
“There’s no way you are getting on a professional team unless you are willing to pay several thousand dollars.”
“You have to understand, soccer here is a business. You pay to play. There are no tryouts.”
I reaffirmed him my commitment and thanked him for his perspective.
He then felt the need to reiterate what he’d just said because he didn’t think I understood.
I heard him loud and clear. Good intelligence, but not the guy I’m bringing onto my all-star team to make this happen.
Today, I was reminded of the journey I went on almost four years ago. My goal was to travel the world. And my plan?
Wait, you need a plan? Nope.
I went back into my reflections from then looking for answers that would solve this discomfort I’m feeling now. Sure, it provided some good advice and insight but really it just reminded me that none of this journey is going to be found outside of me.
How many times do I get reminded of that? A lot :)
I marveled at the extreme swings of emotions. Patience and uncertainty were the most common words.
Coming to Argentina, I definitely had a timeline of when I was supposed to find a team. By now, I thought I’d at least be closer :)
Trying to live life on my timeline doesn’t usually pan out.
I’m reminded of the spot I’m in right now. Simple surroundings. In my room, at my desk, writing this. I’ve come to know my room well. It’s greeted my varied emotions and feelings coming back from a full day of uncertainty or fully revitalized after a run.
I like to walk into bookstores and browse the selection.
I pick one up and open to a page. I’m taken to a different time, place and reality.
Day dreaming has become my secondary job.
It has more safety and comfort. It takes me outside of the current reality and offers me some reprieve from my current one.
I love myself.
Hands down this is kicking my butt AND I feel absolutely whole. How does that work? It just does.
What if you challenged yourself to be stretched to a point that you think “oh fuck”?
We keep this going!
Double B