What are you not allowing yourself to see about your life right now?

After a quick trip to New York this weekend, I've arrived in Florence.

To say it's not freezing cold would be an understatement. I sometimes think I could plan a little bit better around the weather when I travel, but then I also realize that would be silly of me to stop this flow of life by my belief that I need warm weather 100% of the time.

To creating new perspectives, I'm pumped to experience this chilly Firenze weather as I watch my breath fog into the wind.

From my time in New York, one thing that was reflected back to me by my friends was their curiosity in whether I was religious or not.

They wondered based on the way I operated, what I said, and what I did didn't fit into one box of thought.

They witnessed my love for praying at meals and sharing the gratitude I had for being in good company. I would attribute much of my clarity of thought to meditating almost every day for the past year. I shared how I sometimes go to church on Sundays, or in my storytelling of how different things in my life 'coincidentally' happened (not), and the way I talked about God and universe like they were my best friends.

Am I religious?

My response is that I feel deeply connected to God. Where I seldom question if he is there anymore and instead become curious about what I'm being invited into.

I remember in my first stint of travels learning so much about Islam, Judaism, and Christianity. It was fascinating for me to learn not what was right or wrong but what resonated with people and why.

Feeling connected to something greater than me has not always been the case and I have had many peaks and valleys in that relationship.

The difference now is I no longer think of this God as separate from me because I have consciously experienced him shaping my life.

It's like when someone tells you something that makes sense but you can't understand it until you experience it yourself.

One of the nights that my friend asked me about my religion started with a feeling that I’d like to go out in the city. There was an opportunity to go to a bar and watch the Indiana football game. I was excited to watch some football but was also curious as to why I had this uncommon desire to go to the bar. Not often I do that.

As a friend of mine and I are walking towards the bar, I take a quick glance to my left and in a restaurant sitting down for dinner are two of my good friends from college whom I hadn't seen in sometime.

I end up stopping, walking into the restaurant, and saying hi. Then in a quick moment I realized this was exactly why I had this ‘want’ to go out that night. I spent the rest of the evening with them.

I don’t mistake my excitement about something for just chance. God is this power that burns like the sun in my soul and heart.

It tells me what I'm capable of. It places the ideas of Argentina and Italy in me. And it allows me to experience things that makes people want to say 'that's crazy.'

Something I've only recently started doing is creating an intention that I experience miracles every day. And guess what? I now experience them every day.

At this point, I've had enough experiences that have given me chills down my arms, filled my heart with love and joy, left me with no way to rationalize other than there is something greater than me at work in this world. And with each one, I let go more and more of my grasp on life.

On the plane to Florence, I asked myself what am I not allowing myself to see about my life right now?

Silence.

I don’t allow myself to see how much I can trust God. To relax. I don’t allow myself to see that I can let go. Let go of the fear that I won’t be okay.

I am being invited into an even deeper experience of life.

So yes, I'd say God and I are in a tight relationship right now and I welcome many more evolutions between us.